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2:09a.m

I'm tired, I'm exhausted, and I'm drained. My life is so busy and packed right now, but in the midst of it all, I need to blog this.
I need some time to myself.
I know that I hardly speak about my feelings. Not even to my closet friends, heck, not even to my family. But I'm just going to let this be an exception, because I feel that I really can't keep this ro myself anymore.

I am really really so tired. Everyday is spent the same way- trying to live up to people's expectations, trying to prove that I am capable of something, trying to fit in

I just want to be left alone and have some space. Why is it that people expect me to be completely fine because 2 years have already passed? Dont they realize that it's not just something that I can get over.

The fact thaT they think getting A*s for my exams is the most important thing for me right now appals me.

To be honest, all I want for myself now is to have some time to heal. I can barely go through each day without feeling frustrated and angry.

I wish people could be a little more understanding



May Favorites and disappointing products
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Hello everyonee!!

Hope you guys had a great month in May. May didn't end very well for me because I had decided last minute to take some subjects for this year's Oct/Nov IGCSE. I'm really worried and scared and frightened and overwhelmed with the sudden workload and responsibilities but I'm still hanging in there. Somehow.

Anyway, I thought I'd do my May Favorites as a short break from studying. I didn't have the time to edit the photos, or put them in a nice setting, so please bear with it! :(


Price: 11 pounds
Availability: Boots/Superdrug, UK. -I'm not sure if it's available in Malaysia yet-

WonderBronze was one of the products that I bought during my trip in Europe in April and it's one of Soap and Glory's most recent products. It's a blush brick just like their Peach Party and Love at First Sight blushes. I have all three of them but I find that I reach for WonderBronze the most. 
I love using this in the number 3 motion to achieve a sun-kissed look. I wouldn't recommend using this for conturing because it has shimmer in it. I think that it's just an awesome product - the colors in the pan were very well picked and the packaging is sturdy and compact. 



Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer
Price: RM19
Availability: Watsons, 1 Utama

I only begun to know about the whole hype of this concealer when I was back from Europe and words could not describe how bummed I was for not picking this off the shelves at Boots. So when I saw Collection's new set-up in Watsons, I was so freaakin overjoyed. I felt like I was overflowing with happiness as I scooped up the second last tube left to the cashier. 

This product is everything everyone had been (and still is) talking about. It's creamy, long-lasting, and offers great coverage. To top that off, it is so affordable. 
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer is available in 4 shades. I'm the shade Light 2 and if you can see in my swatch picture below, it's quite orange-toned. I like using this concealer for my under-eyes and on blemishes, and I just make sure I mix it with my BB cream so that it matches my skin tone. :) 





SilkyGirl Hi-Definition Brow Liner
Price: RM17.9 (this was after discount, I believe it is RM21.9 before) 
Availability: Watsons, Guardian

I'm honestly not a fan of SilkyGirl's products. I've had a couple of products that didn't leave me impressed, or were even found disappointing. However, I was desperately looking for an eyebrow pencil because I had an event to attend to in a few days. Luckily, I came across Naomi Neo's Everyday Makeup youtube video and it showed her using this product. If you guys didn't already know, she's a famous Singaporean blogger. Basically, I love her hair and not to mention, her eyebrows. So even though I felt skeptical about buying this product, I had to give it a go because time didn't permit for me to find another option. 

I, however, did not expect this brow liner to work this well. I'm a beginner at filling in my brows, but this was so easy to use. This product took me by surprise, and I'm really pleased with it. I got mine in the shade 02 Dark Brown because my hair is dyed and the black shade would just look a little too unnatural on me. 





Etude House Don't Worry Tinted Lip Balm
Price: RM 29.90 (purchased at only RM9.90)
Availability: All Etude House outlets

Maybelline Baby Lips 
Price: 2.99 pounds
Availability: Boots/Superdrug UK

 Tinted lip balms would have to be one of the most products I own in my dresser. I've been using Etude House's Don't Worry Lip Balm in the shade "It's Fine" and Maybelline's Baby Lips in "Pink Punch". I love both of them so much, but I find that I opt for Etude House's one more because it stays on a whole lot longer in comparison. On the other hand, I have to give credit to how good Baby Lips smell. It's like applying a layer of crushed candy onto your lips.


Price: RM 26.90
Availability: Watsons, Guardian

This product is like my life-saver on days where I only have 5 hours of sleep (which happens too frequently). It gets rid of my puffy eyes and just makes my concealer sit a lot better. The metal roller wakes me up too. Great product and although it's only 15ml, it would last a good amount of time because it's only for your eye area.



Product dissappointments

Demak Up Cotton Science 
Availability: Amsterdam

I picked this product up at Amsterdam airport and remember having a tough battle between choosing this or going with NIVEA makeup remover wipes. I ended up going with this since it was for sensitive skin. This product disappointed me so much though. It didn't have a seal over the top so the cotton pads were almost dried out when I opened it. It was totally not worth it and I regretted not getting the NIVEA pack instead. 



Maybelline 2-IN-1 Impact Shadow Liner by EyeStudio
Price: RM 17 (after discount) 
Availability: Watsons, Guardian

I had never been on good terms with Maybelline's Eyeliners. The first one I had bought broke on my second use, and I was ascertained not to buy one again. 
However, because I was short on time (again), this was the only waterproof pencil eyeliner that fell within my budget and I had to purchase it. 
This product is creamy and pigmented but it's not waterproof as the labeling had promised. This had obviously upset me a lot because I don't think it's possible to wear a non-waterproof eyeliner in the weather here. I would by all means want to avoid eyeliner running down my cheeks, so this product had just hugely disappointed me.



**End of post

I'm really sorry this post was poorly written as I had to get it done within half an hour. Gotta get back to studying now! I'll edit this post later.


February Favorites [REVIEWS]
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Hey guys! As the title suggests, this post is going to be about my February favorites. I've realized that I had gravitated towards makeup products instead of my usual skincare indulgence in the month of February, so I thought it would be pretty worthwhile to share it with you guys. Also, some of the products (which will be listed with a ❅) were given to me by my cousin Amy, so she deserves a huge thank you! 

Availability: Sephora counters

This blush had been raved and talked about so much on Youtube, so if I were to say that I was excited to try it out, it would an understatement. 
This blush did indeed live up to its hype. I received mine in the shade Peaceful, and in the travel sized packaging which does not come with a mirror.
The funny thing about this blush is that it did not give me the first impression I was expecting. I thought that I would fall in love with it immediately, but that only came about four hours into wearing it. I was a little confused at first, because when I had initially put it on, it wasn't anything special. It just felt like a regular blush, but after a couple of hours, it blended in so well and gave an amazing natural glow. It's also very long-lasting (not sure if it's up to 12 hours though). I absolutely adore it and I am planning to invest in the full-sized one. 

The shade Peaceful is coral/peach toned with a slight shimmer to it, and it comes in a nude orange colored packaging (which is honestly a little misleading).





Conclusion
In my opinion, I find that that this blush gives a very sheer, subtle and healthy color to the cheeks. The color doesn't come off very obvious-it's definitely the kind where you have to build a couple of layers to make it really show up. However, the shimmer is quite noticeable if you were to compare it to a matte blush, and since I personally like my blushes matte, this blush acts as a blush and highlighter duo for me. So, if you're one of those matte blush lovers and want to try out something with a little shimmer, this is totally up your alley. Also, I have to mention that all of this is based on the colour Peaceful and it does not mean the same for the rest of the colours in this blush range. 

NYX Cosmetics

Availability: Sephora
Price: RM 19

To be honest, I'm still getting used to the whole idea of this product. My intention when I bought this product was to use it as highlighter for my inner corners. What I didn't know, was that because I have tapered eyelids, it is more difficult for the color to really show up. To make things worse, I have oily eyelids (thanks to the humidity in Malaysia) and because the texture is "chalky", it rubs off really easily. 
This product was the wrong choice as highlighter for my inner eye corners. However, I've heard that it works fantastic as an eyeshadow base, so I'm hoping that works successfully for me and I could get some use out of it.




Conclusion
Pigmentation wise, the Jumbo Eye Pencil is really great. It's creamy and gives a great opaque color. I think that the lasting power differs for every individual because if you have oily eyelids like me, this is definitely not going to last very long. I personally would not repurchase this because rm19 is quite pricey given the fact that it only comes in such little product. However, if you're willing to pay for that amount, and if you want to try something different than your regular pot eyeshadows, I do recommend getting it. 

NYX Lip Products

Availability: Sephora
Price: RM26

As you can already tell, this is a Lip Cream. This means that the consistency is not as thick as a lipstick, but not too sheer like a lipgloss. The shade Candy Land is a nice pink color with some nude peach tones to it- I have difficulty describing the color, but basically it's just a very nice natural pink. 
I find it hard for me to pull off this shade though, and I guess it's because my lips are naturally darker than this pink shade. So when I apply this colour onto my lips, it looks a little..off. 
I have yet to try it over a layer of concealer, hopefully the colour will show up better and a little more flattering. 
Secondly, I really dislike the fragrance to this product. It's strong and smells very artificial. If you're scent sensitive like me, this product is a no go for ya 



Conclusion
NYX Xtreme Lip Cream would work perfectly if you've been wanting to transition from a lip gloss to a lipstick, or if you just want something heavier than a tinted lip balm/lip gloss. The price is pretty worth it for a 7ml tube. It comes with a flat felt tip applicator (like a spatula), but I just think it's absolutely useless in application. It does an awful job at getting into the corners of your lips and I always end up using my fingers to apply (it's more hygienic too). The scent is strong and unpleasant in my opinion. However, it gives great pigmentation, it isn't drying, and CandyLand is a really nice shade of pink. I have mixed thoughts on this product, and I think some people would like it but potentially a few others won't too. I'd suggest you to try it out first with a sample.

Availability: Sephora
Price: RM 26

NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream basically has the same consistency as the NYX Xtreme Lip Cream except it dries to a matte finish. Amsterdam was the colour I had my eyes set upon when I came across the reviews of this range of lip creams. The shade of red was what I was looking for-- not too "in-your-face", but wearable and perfect for a special occasion (I wore this on CNY!). 


Conclusion
A little product goes a long way for the NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream. It takes at least 15 seconds to fully dry (mattify?), which is fairly fast since it's cream based. The colour doesn't transfer easily since it's matte, so I like using this for the Korean gradient lip effect because you definitely don't want to use something that is going to smudge and end up messy (looking nothing like the gradient effect). The tube is 8ml and comes with a regular round felt tip sponge applicator which is useless as well--I use the MAC 316 lip brush for a cleaner application. The scent again is still strong but doesn't put me off so much compared to the Xtreme Lip Cream. It is more drying and I wouldn't suggest getting it if you tend to have very dry/chapped lips. The lasting power is better than the Xtreme Lip Cream, but it's also harder to remove. 
Both lip creams are smooth, not so heavy, and gives great pigmentation.

Top to bottom: Xtreme Lip Cream (Candy Land), Soft Matte Lip Cream (Amsterdam), Jumbo Eye Pencil (Milk)

Availability: Watsons, Guardian, Sasa (bought mine at Watsons)
Price: rm39.90 (I bought mine at rm29.90 but I've seen it go as low as to RM27 on 2-day promotions at Watsons)

The Maybelline Rocket Mascara comes in waterproof and washable formulas. 
They are both packaged the same way except that the waterproof formula has the labeling in blue and the washable in pink. The waterproof one is available in 2 shades and the washable is available in 3.
I've mostly heard or seen reviews on the washable formula and it seems to be more popular than the waterproof one. Before you start contemplating which to get, Watsons in Malaysia only offers the washable one, so there goes the other option :( 

The Maybelline Rocket Mascara is fantastic at giving volume but I find that it lacks in lengthening (though I shouldn't be expecting it since it only claims to volumize). The wand is plastic and has synthetic bristles that have done an excellent job at separating my lashes and coating them evenly. However, because the wand is thick, it's difficult to get into the inner eye corner lashes which is a downside since it could really slow down the getting ready process. Another downside is that I get flakes onto my undereyes after about 7 hours of wear, and my upper and lower lashlines actually stick together temporarily when I'm exposed to sunlight throughout most of the day. I assume that it's because of sweat and its non-waterproof formula to be the reason.



Conclusion
The Rocket Washable Mascara does fulfill all that it has claimed to do--giving voluminous and clump-free lashes. I feel like that is a major plus since it is a drugstore product and is relatively cheaper compared to other brands such a Revlon or L'oreal. On the other hand, this is not a lengthening mascara, so if you have short and straight eyelashes like I do, you might want to only use this mascara over another coat of mascara that offers length.

Availability: Watsons, Guardian, Sasa
 Price: RM19

The Maybelline Colour Tattoo is a cream based eyeshadow that is packaged in a glass pot--one that you would usually find with gel eyeliners. The uniqueness about this particular product is that it really does not budge once it's on your skin. When I first heard of the name 'Colour Tattoo', I thought it was just a marketing scheme to get the product flying off the racks-but, no, this stuff is no joke. It lasts on your eyelids from 8am till 10pm (my experience) and it still looks gorgeous at the end of the day.

 This product was literally in most beauty gurus' favorites videos at one point (I remember Missglamorozzi and essiebutton used it religiously). I was a little late to join in on the excitement but I'm glad I did.







Conclusion
The Maybelline Colour Tattoo was a really pleasant surprise at rm19. I don't have any complaints about it except that it does dry quite quickly in the pot, so you have to scrape off the crusty layer before application. Bad to the bronze is an amazing coffee colour that has a sheen of glitter over it. It works as an awesome all-over-the-lid shadow, fairly easy to use, and lets you avoid the hassle of cleaning your eyeshadow brush afterwards. Totally recommend it to anyone. The colour tattoo has other great colours as well and I've linked the website to the title above, so as to make your life easier (you're welcome)
Availability: All Laneige counters
Price: RM100 (according to websites)

I've not used this product enough for me to write a full review on it. However, I need to say that this stuff smells like freaking heaven. It smells so good, I feel like Laneige should actually attach a note saying "Refrain from eating". The Multiberry Yogurt Repair Pack smells just like fresh strawberry/blueberry yoghurt--sweet and delicious and something you might unconsciously mistake as real food. 

The Multiberry Yogurt Pack is a wash-off mask that claims to nourish and moisturize the skin. It is a lightweight cream infused with a range of berry extracts (raspberries, blueberries, cranberries, wolfberries, etc.) and other ingredients such as Sogurty, NAG and Niacinamide. 

I like using this mask before bed, especially on nights where I'd be sleeping with air-conditioning. It leaves my skin feeling super supple the next morning wake up. I use this product sparingly since it's so expensive.

-I'll be writing a more complete review on this in the future-






**End of rewiews

If you're wondering why I left out the Etude House nail polishes, it was because I had forgotten to take pictures and wanted to get this post out asap. sorry! 


Day #2 Challenge
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2 Ways to win my heart
  1. Guys who are comfortable to be around with. I think it's very difficult when a guy, or pretty much anyone, is very seclusive. Someone who is comfortable with being silly, having fun. Being themselves.
  2. Uh. I guess it'd be fun if the person likes dancing. Yeah. 
Hahahaha I honestly dk. These were just the first two things that came to mind (:


Day #1 Challenge
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Hullo every1
Saw this on a website and decided to do it ! :) Here it goooes

1 Thing I Need to Say

2013 IS COMING TO A FREAKING END. It's 7 more minutes to New Year's Eve and I am still in shock that 2013 went by just like that. Everything was so quick, and. just what the heck. How did it become December?

2013 was a great year for me though. I took a lot more risks, and I became a whole lot stronger and positive. I've been more self-confident and outgoing, so I'm really happy. However, there were also things that I've regretted not doing, or accomplishing, and so I think it would be really important for me to set out my priorities for 2014. If you guys didn't already know, 2014 is my exam year. It's going to be a whole lot busier and stressful so I need to have my focus on what I really want to get done.

Priorities

1. Sleep
Okay I had to put this as my #1 because I really need to snap out of my unhealthy sleeping habits. Like for instance, I need to stop it with the "I'll just go to bed when I'm tired", and then feel like I just got a hangover the next morning. No. I need to end it.

2. Study 
Pretty happy that I could hit 3A*s 2As 3Bs 1C for this year. I'm definitely going to need to work harder on my Add math, Economics,  and Chem. Really hoping I can graduate by the end of 2014 and enter college at 17. :x

3. Dance
Im the centre one (: Creds: Orange
I feel like the more I dance, the more I love it. Even though it's going to be hectic next year, I'd definitely find a time to dance. I really want to improve myself, learn more different styles and perform more often. There's the biennial concert next year and I'm seriously praying that it doesn't clash with my exam period. so yesss *fingers crossed D:

4. Swimming

I FEI JOR ALRD. Need to kick back into my swimming and gym routine. sigh

Yeap, these are pretty much what I want to do (or get done) for next year. Wishing everyone Happy New Year's Eve! I wish I could go for a new year countdown, but I've got a family din din. Whatever you guys are doing, I hope you'd have funn :)
I'll be posting my day#2 challenge tomorrow so come back if you're curious
hahaha

okay i have nothing else to write bye



Italy trip
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Hey hey hey! I'm back again, as promised. I'm going to be writing about my Italy trip today and I'm going to write it like I would in a diary because it's much easier that way. So yeah let's begin!

6th December

Doha

My dad and I left for the airport at around 6am. It took us almost 14 hours to travel from KL to Rome because we had a transit at Doha. We used Qatar Airways and I hated the experience. The plane was really small and everything was just cramped. It was also really stuffy and ugfh I don't think I'm ever going to sit that airline anymore. 
Complaints aside. Once we reached Rome it was already in the evening, so we had a Chinese dinner. My memory is fuzzy from then on because I was so so tired, and I had butt aches from sitting too long. 

7th December

Touring Rome! Here's my oh oh tee dee

Infinity scarf-H&M
Top-Chicpop
Jeans-H&M
Shoes-Keds

Taken outside the hotel. First stop of the day was to the Colosseum. (:

Colosseum


Went inside the Colosseum for about 15 minutes.


me and my papa ^-^

There were many Smart fortwos which reminded me of Lizzie Mcguire and Letters to Juliet xD

Trevi Fountain!

My hair color is a mess, I know
 I did not even make a wish. I threw in two coins and still forgot to make a wish. :( But anyway, a cute guy didn't suddenly appear in front of me just like in the Lizzie Mcguire movie. So either way, meh

Pantheon



Street stalls
Pictures below were taken in Vatican City:

My local tourguide for that day! really nice and friendly person (:

Tapestry
St. Peter's Basilica
Exiting Vatican City :(
Spanish Steps
That evening, we made our way to the Spanish Steps and it was really really crowded for some reason. We were let off for free time, so my dad and I just walked around the area to find souvenir shops.
And that was all for Rome! It was quite tiring because we walked pretty much the whole day. I came back to the hotel to find blisters on my feet but it was worth it! hehe

8th December

Headed up north from Rome to Pisa.
Once we arrived, we went to see the Leaning Tower of Pisa
Souvenir stallss!  mah fav


Leaning Tower of Pisa
My bicep muscles are just hidden underneath my jacket ok~
Italian dinner that night!

9th December

Earrings-Forever 21
Necklace-street stall in Pisa
Moved from Pisa to Florence.
Made a photo stop on the way.


Where's the resemblance
The Basilica di Santa Maria del Fiore

LOL my dad


Bought some leather goods (: 

After that, we went to visit the Ferrari Museum. I don't know much anything about cars or Ferrari for that matter but it was nice to see all the different models of Ferraris. I could also feel my brother's jealousy all the way from his dorm in UK so I tried my best to take lots and lots of photos hahaha. There's too many for me to upload but here's LaFerrari! My favorite. Such a beauty aaaaah 


10th December

This was the day I was looking forward to the most because we were going to VENICE. I'd been wanting to visit Venice for the longest ever (besides Verona). So in the morning, we left for the port to take a boat to Venice.


Gosh my face



We've reached! The boat ride took 45 minutes but it felt a lot shorter because of the breathtaking views.

Narrow alleyway

Surprise, surprise. It's the famous squid ink pasta from Venice. It tastes half as disgusting as it looks, I promise. Hahaha. Definitely a fun first.

Candid shot by my dad. Maan am I gawjus


After lunch, we paid a visit to a glass-blowing factory. We watched a short demonstration and then took a look at the shop. Everything was so pretty and so fragile, not to mention really expensive too, that I felt every single move I make would cause something to shatter. 
After the visit, we were given free time. And I love my free time. Alot.




Excuse the shiny face :(

While we were walking down an alley, I came across this shop and ohmaigah LOOK AT HOW CUTE THESE ARE. I cannot even. And I could only stand outside the window to watch the lady eat that cupcake. ufjafkdlcad

St. Mark's Basilica

Time for one of the highlights of the day! The gondola ride. It's 25euros per person, and the ride lasts for 25 minutes.



Made friends with Sheryl from the tour group :) She's so nice and pretty, and I had fun being on the same gondola with her! hahah


Check out our macho gondolier behind!
My dad and her dad! C:
St. Mark's Square
St. Mark's Square lit up later in the evening

We took a boat back just like before, aand then I can't remember what I had for dinner that day because I forgot to take a photo. So. Oops. 


Goodnight x 

11th December

Milan today! This was my second trip to Milan after 6 years. I'm not going to post pictures up from then because it was during that embarrassing phase of life where you look like crap. Or maybe I'm just the only one who had it.

The hotel which we had stayed for one night

Sforza Castle 


Chicken and chips for lunch (I only realized it wasn't fish when I was done eating, can you believe it)

La Scala opera house
Milan Cathedral in Piazza del Duomo
Christmas street fair next to the Cathedral. I miss the whole Christmassy atmosphere so much


Super classy Bershka 
A fancy shoe shop which I didn't dare step in 
The hotel I stayed in Milan
I was happy with this hotel out of all the rest because it was so much more spacious. And they actually had a bathtub. yeah. a bathtub. 

 12th December

Last day in Italy! :( I was really sad and I wanted to stay longer. 
Anyway, it was a shopping day because we were heading to the Serravalle Outlet. There's Prada, Gucci, Michael Korrs, except the goods are much cheaper than in boutiques because they're off-season products. 

One of my favorite shots

My dad allowed me to walk around the whole place on my own because we shop very different things. :P So I was left with just a map and my sense of direction to get around. Tbh, I felt way more excited than nervous at that moment. I'm used to shopping alone but to walk in a new area without being able to be contacted. wow. 
yeah that's my kind of thrill.
Hahahah. Also, being the very clever wei lynn, I forgot to ask my dad for cash. I only had one euro in my pocket which was meant to pay for a toilet entry fee. So I literally walked into all the designer outlets, including Prada, and got attended by their salespeople without them realizing how much I actually had. 

Anyway, thank God I bumped into my dad later on. We had lunch together and he asked if I wanted to get anything from an outlet, and so I brought him to Michael Korrs to show him a navy leather wallet which was so damn pretty. He said I could get it, but when I found out the price I felt like vomiting blood instead because. rm800. I think I would feel more stressed than happy to carry such a wallet around. So anyway, we left the store, my dad gave me some cash and it was time for another adventure (yay)!
I decided to check out all the soap and cosmetic stores this time, and it was so. much. fun. I went to KIKO Milano first, and I had fun testing out nail polishes there. The next place I went to was some beauty store where I got a nail polish from Smalto, color Flame red. After that, I went to PUPA Milano where got a brown eyeliner pencil for an upcoming wedding.
And that was really all that I bought from Serravalle Outlet. Hahahah. 
At around 3:30p.m, we left for the airport and it was time to say goodbye to Italy. :C

My last meal in Italy :C
I really really miss Italy. I had a lot of fun and I've learnt many new things from the trip. I'm definitely going back again one day. I was a little bummed out when I found out I wasn't going to Verona, but it's okay because I'll be saving it for my honeymoon (; 

So this was my Italy trip. I hope you guys had fun reading it :) It took me a crazy long time to compile the photos together (obviously because I'm not technically inclined at all).

I'll update again soon with a blog challenge, so stay tuned if you wanna find out! Yay 

Love you guys ^-^
Ciao 

P/S, if you've noticed any difference in quality between pictures, it's because some of them were taken from my phone :)