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Hello, you. Started reading Emma by Jane Austen two days ago, and have been thoroughly enjoying it. Am planning to finish it before topical test week begins (:
Anyway, today is the second last day of 2011 & I have no idea how to approach it , or let's say, end it as it's already 9:18p.m. Not many memorable memories were made this year ; I hardly get those happy flashbacks running through my mind from this year. And I hate to say that I know why.
Indulging in nostalgia is probably one of my many bad tendencies this year. Um, so is becoming lazy. Combination of that two makes an unproductive person, like me. I think that's enough for me to say that this whole year has been sadly wasted.
But, quoting from my previous two posts 'I can't erase all the sadness let alone change anything' I guess I just have to leave this year as it is and anticipate for the year ahead. And I will. However, there's this thing called the 2012 phenomenon (I bet you've heard of it), which is said that the world will end on the 31st December 2012. I'm not saying I believe in it, but there may be a possibility right? To be honest , it's intensifying the pressure of me making 2012 memorable.
I'm scared of what's awaiting for me next year. And I'm scared I would be indifferent. Like I said, one of my 2012 resolutions I've figured out is to be happy. But then, this is just another resolution among the other failed resolutions from the past years. Call me a pessimist for all I care. But really, I've learned that every little move we make can make a huge impact and difference. What if I make the wrong moves again like this year?
Spilling glue all over my table so that I can peel them off after they have dried. I think I've gone nuts. Going to take a shower and try to get some good sleep so that I will have sufficient energy at Mystical Eve concert tomorrow night. As much as I want to blog some more, I think it's best I leave this post as it is and let you guys conclude that I'm a weird lunatic who needs help.
Nights. And just in case I don't get to blog again tomorrow, Happy New Year :)
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//10:55p.mDear 2011,
You brought tears & laughter which are all nothing but memories now. You weren't what I expected, nor were you completely disappointing. Christmas '11 wouldn't be the same as the rest of the years anymore. My friends at church are almost strangers to me due to the two months of me skipping youth meetings. Bottom line is is that you were the biggest roller coaster I had ever experienced.
Beginning of 2011, I had tried eating too little, way too afraid of becoming fat. I made close friends who have forgotten me by now. I picked up Accounting. Middle of 2011, things started to become terrible. I felt so unworthy and unwanted. I didn't know what to do. I lost my way to happiness, and was at the saddest point of my life. I started eating too much from then onwards. And here we are now..at the end. Me, heavier with fats and still lost .
But, it's already done. I've worried too much for the future. I've dwelt too long in my past mistakes. Maybe it's my continual impatience as I try to accomplish all my goals within a short period of time. Maybe it's my non-existent assurance of becoming happy and content. Maybe it's my fear of staying due to the fact that nothing stays forever. Maybe I've lost hope in discovering my abilities. They say life's too short ; They say our time here is but a breath. But it's so long for me, and I'm not even halfway there.
I've forgotten the path to happiness. I've forgotten all the beautiful intricate creations God had skilfully crafted. Remember my 2010 new year resolution list? I didn't get to fulfill everything. So, for next year, I want to be someone different. I'm going to be happy. I don't know how and I don't know where to start. But, I'll get there.
So, 2011, I am fully aware I can't erase all the sadness let alone change anything..& I'm ready for 2012.
Lynn.
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Merry Christmas Eve, people :D I spent my day sewing this little pouch for my cousin:
My messy workplace.
Up close :)
All the materials used :D
Apparently, it's not finished yet. I'm planning to complete it by Monday. Hehe.
Cup lid from Jenn ; Bracelet from Jo Ann & Jo Mynn.
Oh yeah, have I told you? I've picked up weightlifting again :3
--Christmas&new year topic in the next post.
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Today, my brother got his driving license (: At about five this evening, he took me out for his very first drive. It was scary at first, because he did not drive smoothly..AT ALL. But he eventually got the hang of it, and decided to visit our old Bu2 house. I saw the park, the house with the green gate, and our old neighbours' houses. The memories just instantly flashed back ; I remembered riding my old purple bike around the park, and thinking how great life was. I remembered the friendly Golden Retriever (though it wasn't there this evening , must have died ._.) Meh. I miss the life there ); . Everything was good. I was happy. And now the playground got renovated. It looks too new..And I don't like that.
Because I don't want to bore you guys with any more unexciting things, lets move on to something which I know you'd laugh at..
Sadly, that would be my haircut. I just got it like a week ago. Pictures below:
I like bright pictures.
Oh, hello.
...I KNOW YOU WANT MEHHHH.
& lastly, to all the boringlamepeoplejk here's my so-called decent photo of my haircut.
I had cut that awkward strand of hair after taking this picture. It looked too awkward for my awkwardity. Just saying. :)
Okay,thanks for reading this. Back to How I Met Your Mother marathon. Bye!
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I still don't believe you when you told me you're doing fine. So, here's a post filled with my favorite Bible verses which really encourage & comfort me. I hope some of them will become your favorites too. (:"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am." -John 14:1-3
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." -Revelation 21:4
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, thought its waters roar and foam, and the mountains quake with their surging." -Psalm 46
"No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." -1 Corinthians 10:13
"So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal." -2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Sorry if there are any typo errors. Some of the verses had to be typed out as they were handwritten in my notebooks. The rest of them were found at this website. I hope this made you feel better! (:
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Oh, hello. Did I manage to freak you out? :D . So, you're probably noticing the 'hint' of make up. Just so you know, I don't wear any make up on a daily basis - It was taken after I got back from Appreciation Night (: Currently raping the replay button of Pixie Lott-Broken Arrow. The song is so nice D: . And not to mention, she's a really great dancer DD: . #jealous.
Push that aside. I've recently realized I haven't been talking much about my holiday. Which isn't surprising because I dislike talking about what had physically happened, knowing that the post would only be dedicated to the people who didn't join the event. It's also like you're volunteering to become a time machine AND a journalist. BUT, because I have nothing else to fill in the blank space beneath this paragraph.. sit back, and feel left out. Just kidding (about the last part).
Last week is the highlight of my whole holiday. Amy came down :D , and we had a blast. On the first day, we hung out at One Utama and had pretzels. The next day, we went to catch a movie at Cineleisure and then spent about four and a half hours at Nichii, shopping. Idk what took us so long. Don't call us intense shoppers , because her watch must have been fast. I mean, all we did was look at clothes. Four hours and half hours? Psh. that's just so unlikely._. nevermind that.
The next day, we took an LRT to KLCC (: . We went to Aquaria, and I got to touch a chocolate chip starfish. It was so cute D:. But it felt like a rock. Meh. It was at the entrance area, and there were other creatures we could touch as well. There was the bamboo shark and a weird kind of crab. No one touched the crab because it looks ugly. And uh, Amy & I chickened out when it came to touching the bamboo shark. The guy handling the.."touching pools" was like "Pretend it's a dog. Don't be scared." And I was like "A DOG? Comparing this creature to a dog is just stupid. There's no similarity between them except that they both breathe." We got to see so many animals which I had no idea existed. Aha. oh yeah, I already figured what I want to do for my 14th birthday - Cage Rage. It's a must, but also, I don't want to be disappointed that no sharks would swim past. :Y We bought jellybeans after Aquaria and reached home at five. The next few days we just bummed around and drank coffee. :3
After she left on Sunday, I've been sitting in front of my computer laughing to How I Met Your Mother. I'm finally finishing Season 2. :D Yeap. That's about it.
I can't have this post too long, otherwise no one would read it.
Okay..Um. Peace out? :D
P/S, That's not my room.
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"All these words we speak casually- well, maybe I'm just weak, but it hurts me." -Lenka
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Comes to a point in life where I don't understand people and a stage in life where I don't understand myself either. Questions just keep flooding in of which the majority can only be answered by God. Hello. It's December already. I can happily say I've survived 2011 now. I know it's still a little early for me to conclude this year, and start jotting down my New Year Resolutions, but whatever. I don't think anyone will bother to read this post till two weeks after it gets published :Y
This year was the most difficult. I learned things through the painful way, I lost friends for the right reasons, and made the wrong decisions. I was let down, used, and compared. I learned more about God, had the longest time being broke and got closer to my brother. I also had my first burger from Burger King :D . I spent my birthday at my grandparents' house because of an unfortunate accident. I was back stabbed, & taken for granted. But along the way, I realized who were the people who actually cared. Turns out they're all family.
I was called the things I knew I weren't, I was alone. I got through my eating problems. My insomnia is getting slightly better. My scoliosis didn't progress (:. & I'm going to have my new private chauffeur very soon :D Heh. Yeah, my brother just passed his driving test. :b
I didn't fulfill all my New Year Resolutions for 2011 though. Mehh.
Anyway, remember this? :
Milk toof! :D I used to put their pictures on my blog last year :3
Okai, this is such a lame post. Everything is just everywhere, & im not making much sense; new post now._.
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