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Hello! So erm , I'm supposed to do my homework right now , but ohwells. Five minutes to blog won't kill anything . Anyway , today was awesome :D My mom bought me a swimsuit - a V-shaped tankini & I went to Brands to get two checkered shirts. My mom bought curry puffs too! Falala. But I gotta start on my homeworks, coursework, and assignments now. ): This is such a lame, retarded post...z
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Something really interesting happened to me today . The Lord spoke to my heart the words I've been trying to hear all my life. It came together with such strong assurance that broke me down , literally. He told me everything would be alright . That I was someone special to Him . He made me realize how stupid I have been , allowing myself to get swallowed up with all these worldly issues that don't matter . He said "You said you're ugly , you're useless , you're worthless , but if that was true why would I have created you ? And do you think what you do matters to other people more than me? Do you know how much worth is there in a a soul?"
It stumped me so badly . A book was given to me exactly a week ago , and because I'm a bookworm I read it . I discovered one of the most rare questions I've actually ever been asked. It asked , "If you died tonight , are you 100% sure that you'd be in Heaven ?"
It took me the longest time to answer a question & I'm pretty sure you weren't able to answer that easily either.
This whole insane thing happened to me like several minutes ago , and my face is still wet . So, apologies for any grammar errors found in this post .
This year's the hardest year I've had , although you may not have seen the pain hidden behind all my smiles and laughter. I went through quite a lot of depression. I had so many insecurities. I hated the fact that God just had to give me scoliosis, which ruined my opinion on my figure . But I think I'm finally through it .
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Reminisced my past yesterday & realized so many things I wish I didn't have to know. I had carelessly hurt so many people , but what could I have done ? I wasn't ready for any commitment . I didn't want any extensions, or fanciness added , and there wasn't any way I could think of which didn't involve me hurting you .
So what I thought was irritating being surrounded by them , was actually what an average girl would call 'lucky' . But I had classified them all as irritating, trying to get rid of them , and now what's left is a string of guys who had moved on , not bothering to wait anymore.
Relieved ? Yeah. But him . Seven years, and just when I thought he had given up , he came back again .
I feel like the meanest person on earth right now.
My life is such a mess .
Why can't I have a normal life?