So, I guess my week has been depressing and somehow enjoyable.

It's so interesting and captivating that I managed to finish it all in two days. It swept me into this whirlpool of romance and tragedy I haven't felt since I read Eclipse (which was a long time ago).

Am at the loss of words to conclude my opinion on it because the book's too amazing.

You have to read it :)

Mmm.

Speaking of holidays, my dad's planning to go Australia for the THIRD time. He wants my whole family to come along too. We'd be going after my brother's exams which will be in July.

I have NO idea if this trip is partially meant to celebrate my brother's exams OR to celebrate my birthday. After all, my brother's birthday was in London last time. Or something. I do remember he had his birthday in one of the holidays which was out of Malaysia but I forgot precisely where.

:/ Anyhoo, I asked my dad about it and he said it is for the Australia PR thing. Long story.

Honestly, I actually sort of hope my birthday won't be in Australia. Unless my parents say they're not going to celebrate my birthday in Malaysia. 'Cause if I get to, I want all my friends to attend it. I don't want it to be in Australia where I have to tag along my family or perhaps the tour group on my birthday. It's like everything's normal. But also, I can't go around and scream "OMG, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY YOU NEED TO WISH ME SOMETHING AT LEAST". That's be so stupid. Facebook wall posts will really help, but I highly doubt there will be any internet.

And, if we're going to go on tour, it'd usually be hours stuck in the bus and you know how prone I am to motion sickness. For my birthday, I don't want to be sedentary. I want everybody to be active, running here and there. That's me. And so, sitting on a bus? No thanks.

Reading from what I just said, you'd probably be thinking I'm fussy and such. Spoiled. Picky.

I wasn't trying to sound that way. Just wanted to give my opinion.

Chinese New Year is next week! Oh gosh, how time flies :O

Ah, well, I still don't think it's too early for me to wish you xin nian quai le (:

I mean, family reunions! And not to mention, the money :P Eheheh. SHOES, DRESSES, SKIRTS.

How can I not be excited?! I'd most probably be staying up all night long during the CNY holidays trying to calm myself down. And if I fail in doing so, I'd have a How I Met Your Mother marathon while waiting for morning to come.

But still, isn't it annoying when you can't sleep? The isolated feeling you'd have.

Eesh.

Currently addicted to community channel. It's extremely hilarious! Natalie is awesome at expressing sarcasm and such. Hahaha, and her accent is really cool.

By the way, does anyone know how to use Nuffnang? :X I don't really understand how to use it and stuff. Bleugh.

Oh and, apparently, I changed the background of my blog! :D It used to be a picture of white colored planks of wood, but it got really boring to me :/ So that explains the new pink floral design! I'm not sure if it can be categorized as VINTAGE though. Ahha.

But anyway, vintage floral designs FTW!

x

I have recently realized that:

I HAVE NEVER DRANK ANYTHING AT STARBUCKS.

I NEED TO EAT AT WENDY'S (BECAUSE I'VE NEVER EATEN THERE) BEFORE I START SCHOOL SO THE PEOPLE WON'T THINK I'M WEIRD.

I HAVE NEVER EATEN AT DUNKIN' DONUTS.

Oh yeahh, I'm like so freaking incredibly awesome outdated. :/

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I've been honestly stressed these few days. I've been assigned to do one, ONE essay and I'm starting to freak out already. UNBELIEEVABLE.

I have to say it's all the school holidays' fault, actually. It has swiped out all of my motivation. I really need to get hold of myself.

Anyway, I've been thinking quite a lot lately. I've realized a number of things, and I've listed some of them above. One of the things I haven't mentioned is, I've realized that all this while, we've been demanding way too much things. And yet, we can never seem to see the amount of blessed things we posses heaped on top us. It's like they're invisibly hidden to us once we posses them.

About a few weeks ago, my mom told me about how life was when she was my age. The number of hours she studied, and what her wishlist was. What really amazed me was what she desired. Books. That was it. That was the only physical object she wanted.

But what about now? Reminiscing from a few wishlists I've read from my friends, I noticed all of them had some sort of electronic involved. I'm not saying that's wrong or whatever, I myself, want quite a few electronics too. But the difference! The difference of what people wanted last time and NOW.

It's terrifying.

Another thing I've realized is how problems can affect us. We're so lost in trying to fix them that we tend to think life really is insignificant and pointless to live. My problems aren't as big as what adults are handling, but they're enough to blow my mind up. I know "WHAT AM I GOING TO WEAR?!" or "Omgg, how am I supposed to finish this amount of homework?!" or "Arghh, I burned myself trying to cook that thing again! I GIVE UP" can match off what is stressing an adult's mind. For me, I'm always trying to accomplish things just to feel satisfaction. But then I've noticed that I can never, ever accomplish everything. No matter what mind-blowing thing I can manage to accomplish, is able satisfy myself for long. And so, I feel that it's time I should simply be glad and satisfied at every little thing I can do/have accomplished. It may not impress people as much as how other people can, but it's what I am capable of and that's really enough.

Also, I can see that we never seem to think of the present. It's always about the past or the future. We've always been wanting to feel the assurance that everything will be alright (thinking of the future). And if you hadn't, you'd be angry at yourself (past).

But what about the present?

Isn't it important as well?

Well, that's all. (: I think I've talked enough. Lol.

lynn x

Sometimes, I wonder why God doesn't let me know what his plan is for me, or even the reasons why I'm ME and not someone else.

And yet, there's no answer. It's all extremely confusing.

I think it's time I should try to be more optimistic. To stop blaming myself for the things I'm not good at. (:

lynn x

P.S: New favorite word! :D rhododendron. HAHAAHHA. The amount of 'd's LOL.

P.P.S: I just updated the 'the author' tab a few days ago. [: You can go read my new updated bio. Ehehh

I managed to sleep for 24-hours straight. Quite unbelievable but I did. I was just way too restless yesterday that whenever I tried standing up, my legs sort of wobble. Resting in bed for hours really sucks especially cause you can't lie down FLAT without your nose getting blocked. I can't talk much either without my voice cracking here and there. Also, when you have flu, everything you eat is tasteless which completely destroys your appetite for food :(

But I guess being sick has some benefits :P heeehe. Like for instance, I get to read more books and skip tuition.

This post is going to turn out so awesome lame, man. Seriously.

Kay, bye.

lynn x

So here I am, sitting on my pale yellow swivel chair inhaling aerosol/Shieldtox Attack. That is what happens when a baby spider invades an overly foolish timid girl's room *points at myself* who transform into a chicken at every tiny thing that moves with six/eight legs. Bleugrh.

Anyhoo, I'm downright annoyed because I have no idea which school or tuition I'm going to this year! Everything's a huge mess and extremely confusing. My mom's paid the fees for FLC's side-classes which are starting in February but it can't be confirmed yet because of the shortage of teachers currently. And meanwhile, my mom's considering sending me to Ara Damansara's homeschooling center along with Joanna. It has already started, which irritates me alot since their orientation day is over and everybody there knows each other already.

Furthermore, there's no backup plan if FLC's classes aren't able to start. =.= I feel so left out. Like the whole world is learning and improving themselves and I'm at home debating with nobody else but my brain.

My old science class is starting on Friday.. I HAVE NO IDEA IF I'M GOING OR NOT. D:

Cross fingers, I hope my mom makes the right decision. And whatever it would be, I want some sort of school to be involved with it. I'm plain sick of studying at home. It's been six years and I'm longing to get a taste of REAL school again. *Sigh..

Everything is so blurry. It's like standing in a midst of fog, while everybody else is clear of their future. Why are decisions so difficult to be made?

P.S: apologies for any grammatical errors in this post. I'm too irritated to correct them.

School has officially started and my amount of uncompleted English homeworks are constantly bugging me. During the school holidays, my mom has been hammering health articles into my brain and I have to say she was successful in doing it. These articles are like: "DO NOT SLEEP WITH THE LIGHT ON, IT CAN LEAD TO CANCER." or "DO NOT IMMEDIATELY SIT IN THE CAR AFTER YOU OPEN THE DOOR BECAUSE THE HEAT CAN CAUSE BALLAALA."

There's actually more. She's scared me dead with countless simple things that most of my friends have never thought is harmful.

Anyway, if any of you have noticed, there was this period of time where I completely stopped taking photos. Well, it started of when piles of homeworks have been consistently thrown at me every week that caused pimples to infest on my forehead. So yeah. Obviously, no one likes pimples. But it's been clearing off really fast since the school holidays. So you shall see more of me! Ahaha.

That's about itt (: Sorry for the randomness in this post. I was in a mood to blog. Eheh.

Okay, I got to go to Julia's house now :D

lynn x